1 Stop personality - Stop surviving mode and Start Living

I am living as a surviver - I am surviving like the ones who are surfing - this implies the case when I was swimming with Esteni in the sea - and it was fascinating because I went in and I was enjoying the huge waves and then I went more in and then the waves were more strong and I could not stand them and they washed me away and then I was resisting and I was fighting against the water - basically against the ocean - and in fact I even enjoyed it - the fight, the fact that I was being pushed down and washed away and then Esteni came after me about the waves started to pull me out so I should come back - and then I realized that yes, I was a bit already tired and I was fighting and in that fight - in the beginning I was enjoying to fight it but then I simply slipped - I was not really myself anymore but this fight - as physically I was fighting for my life.
Yes, Esteni, I realized the point intensely as this happened already - almost exactly - I was in south India, near Goa at a beach called Paradise - lol it is called like - where I was with a greek girl who just literally arrived to india and we went into the water and then big waves came she immediately went deeper to avoid being crushed and I didn't - I was very close to the rocks - and what happened that I was washed away and I felt myself literally like I was sitting in a washing machine. Then the wave was over and I was seeing that my head is not so far from rocks - and that contact could simply smash my head with all of my brain like a pumpkin over the rocks. In that moment she shouted for me that 'It's coming again' - and I started to move but it was too late - the washing machine experience came again - but in this time I was sure that it comes with my physical end. I had some thoughts like 'people in this cases tend to see their lives roll over before their eyes like a superfast videoclip? - and next thought was my mother' and the next one was like 'WTF?'- and then the wave came - it was a timeless experience - and when it was over I opened my eyes and I was squating front of a really unfriendly rock from my forehead about 5 centimeters.
Then I moved!
I moved like it does not matter what is going on but in this moment I move myself - in that first movement I bruised my hip hard but I continued to go out no matter what - and I managed to avoid the next wave.

Then something happened. Something definitely happened within myself because I was standing there - at paradise beach with a remarkable new scar on my body proving that I am still here.
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Ok I did some vlogs about it after writing this...

Here Sound

Fascinating

I started to hear human's sound different

This awareness thingy is a really funny one
it is like as I lolling by writing as like a liquid
first one drip and then one other - each are one moment but I have no ability to experience - more likely there are like reflections - like glimpses or tiny soundspikes - or the smell what I experience for a moment but very slight - and then no more - it's gone


and then the next time it happens again - almost like at the first time - no rememberence, no memory, no awareness

and then as the drips continue it slowly but surely start to flow in a hairthin thread - and I am becoming aware of simply within a moment that I am experiencing something absolutely new, a total genuine world I am aware of
and then if I start to define it - it is not working - I can not grab it with mind -there is no definition - associations no existing about this awareness

but I can start to explore about how to put into words - and as it is stable - I can reflect myself back that with I want to describe or word it - it is not 'pure enough' so to speak as I am still too contaminated with the delusions within my head
so I must continue purify myself inside and express outside one and equal

until I can embrace myself as presence and my expression will come to be the words as myself as one as equal

so this what I hear within human's words

I have the sense that somehow I can hear the beings - and I have to admit that this is a great assistance to be able to assess my self honesty as I start to experience many things within one word of the being - more likely through speakings
and then I can see - the things I experience within the words - are of my 'issues' of self dishonesty - or I am 'clear of it' so to speak - that I am able to experience the being as it is without my 'shit of mind' -
fascinating

I am entirelly not aware of this thingy but somehow here are moments when I am absolutely sure what I am writing about

this is power
power of presence - but I must stop all occupations

not even of about what I do at the moment - I express and 'detach' myself from the mind participation and embrace all of myself here as mind as stopping it as myself one and equal as the symbiotic physical manifestation of myself within and as the mind consciousness system

will write more about this - at the moment I do my job - but this is fascinating
I forgive myself that Ihave accepted and allowed myself to hold my breath when I experience something new - instead of realizing that this can be referred as programmed fear - so I let go - I breathe and I am here as the physical
period

Gurdjieff

Gurdjieff 1 from Afterlife -The unification of man as I am

Video link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6PAHi1ljrQ

Hello, this is Gurdjieff and I am here to speak about my experience after I died.
Well, the White Light really influences me extensively, because of my life here on earth and after I died. I had come so close but yet also so far of certain realizations of my experience of the
unification of men as I am. Close - but not the certainty of the actual manifestation of the expression of the words of what the I am the unification of I am actually means.
I died before I could actually write my realizations. I had many realizations, I knew much, I lived much, I understood much, but I had to find the way for the people to understand what it is that I have found. So I've designed multiple different ways to, which was almost like my own process while here on earth in the realisation what is required, in terms of the unification of men as I am.
And I died before I could accomplish the manifestation of the realisation and even write down my realisation of what it means to unify man as I am. I did not finish and I did not even have time to explain all that I actually have found to express all that I have found as I am experience.
I made mistakes, I made certain judgements and I made certain comments which was my understanding at that time then near close to my death I had the quantum realisation in one moment of I am expression and it was shortly after that I was removed from this earth by the White Light or the White Brotherhood, because human beings on earth that come any - that used to come before 2 years ago - that used to come any closer to the realisation of the I am: would be removed immediately. Unfortunately such human beings did manifested which is usually referred as anomalies. Something within the design of equated program systems that is not able to be forseen. The balances out the ultimate equation of the manifestation of programed systems.And I was one of them.
I had in that moment of the realisation of I am - seen exactly how to practicly have others realise I am realised in that moment on earth, that I am is the I that exists as all infinitely, but not as the picture you see, not as the world you see: it is the I - the one - the I as one : that must be understood within all of men for the final unification of the manifestation of I am.
Then so when I died, I crossed over and I was reincarnated again, but this time I was reincarnated as a begger on the street and I have been a begger on streets, before the remainder of my experience in existence until up to 2 years ago, because any being that has realised the I am, here on earth is compromised and therefore they will be placed, where they able to be contained and be watched over to make sure that such realisations of the I am never occur again there in such placements of no education and no money and no support of this world, so the I am realisation is not able to be realised come true.
Thank you very much, this is Gurdjieff.

Gurdjieff 2 from Afterlife - WHY Man must Unify: DESTENI

Video Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bStoV5NrPXI

This is gurdjieff, and I am speaking of why man must unify.
It is not a must, it is a inevitability. Why man in inevitability all must unify.
Because of man, each men is already the unification of man.
Let us not find reasons or purposes for the unification of man, but be the starting point of each in the realisation that I am already a unified man.
Why ? It is simple: if we have a begining for a reason and a purpose of the unification of men coming from the perspective of this world being the status or expression that it is, we give hope, we give falsehood. How do we give hope and falsehood? If our starting point for the reason and purpose
for the unification of men is of this world, we give power to that which exists of this world.
The reason and purpose for the unification of men is not of this world. It's not of because of this world currently. It is because of the simple statement I am the unified man.
Have a look. This being the starting point for each, the starting point of I am the unified man, each one standing at that point: the unification of men is here. Because from this statement, you're able to see immediately that which you are not, that is of this world, that is required to be stopped, released, removed, let go on, let go off, from the very core of your inner being.
That is the unified man. The I am. As all as one. The unified, the word in itself already
encomposes the words equal and one.
I am a unified man. Thank you very much. This is Gurdjieff.

Heaven changed completely

Heaven has changed completely – there are no more ascended masters, gods, goddesses, angels, alternate various dimensional planes and realms – the dimensions as understood and known of by human beings on earth – no longer exists.

Heaven/dimensions as was, started changing two and a half years ago when the Interdimensional Portal Opened.


The dimensions in it’s entirety no longer exists – all of the dimensions are within and as human beings here on earth as we stand and are the sound harmonic expression of life within and as oneness and equality – assisting and supporting each human being on earth to stop the mind of thoughts, feelings and emotions so you may realise who you are – you are not the mind – you are life of oneness and equality as all as one as equal.

Desteni

The unification of men is here

The unification of men is already here!

I am Talamon, and I have decided to share my insights as honestly as I am actually. I have a quite ride life and now as I am starting to understand what is going on inside this body (called Talamon) and outside of this body (called earth), I am shareness, I am opennes, I am starting to be alive at first time in this lifetime, which is quite fascinating.

Until this year, I was hiding, especially I have used my knowledge and realisations in my life to hide, to wait, to be not absolute self-honest, which can not continue anymore. I am standing up and as I am being onness and equality with me as me, it is useful to be as more opened as I can.

I always wanted to know the truth, beyond everything and everybody, and I always wanted to give up ANYthing in my life to realise self-freedom, but I was always scared about to ACT this.

Now I got an opportunity - the last - to change me extensively and at the first time to experience the freedom of me. In this world. To be in this world, but not of this world.

I have been always lost - as I start to explain my story of life, it will be revealed.
I have found a page, where at first time, the truth is revealed, but not only about information and knowledge and some silly statements, but practical guidelines for getting free of this situation what we have on this world, but sharing common sense, and exposing the process of self-freedom, self-forgiveness, self-honesty, self-trust, etc without any bullshit, without any spiritualism, without any esoteric cult-like smell, without trying to see the world like perfect.
I was in spiritualism very deeply, and what I experienced? That is not me, that is not true, that is not effective to support me as WHO I AM REALLY, as life as one as equal as the breath in every single moment. Without secrets, without hierarchy, without masters-slaves, without ascension, without any belief in enlightenment or god, without any of mind which is our bondage, which is what we became.

The Earth is dying, hundreds of children are dying in every single minute - I wont sit any longer and see this - this would be the biggest rape with the words: onness and equality. I am one with all brutal destroying? I am one with destroying my very own nature, as the birds, as the trees, the rivers, the oceans, all the planet? No. I stop. I stop participating with this, because I am honestly fed up with my human destructive, self-dishonest nature. I fed up with bondages, with limits, with that 'ignorance is bliss' - fuck it, you have to see what you've became, there is no more choice left as I see.

The problem is this choice. And this is your last chance. After this is no turning back, you know, like in Matrix. You choose LIFE without compromise, without limits, without any dishonesty in EVERY MOMENT -- or you choose that what you are doing right now. It is about you.
I would like to invite you to see into me, how I experience, what I experience, why I experience.

I share myself in to me SEE. This is my self-intimacy. In to me I see.

For now that's it, from a speficic perspective this is the end, the begining of the end and the ending of the begining. My all life was about playing with words, now the words are coming back to me to play with me to shake everything in my life what I trusted before.

Thank you very much,
-tala