[JTL Day 213] 2. Living by the principle of what is best for all

Continuing with the Principles list.

2. Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all


What is best for all - means that within my starting point, words and action I am accumulating what is based on for the support of all life equally.
All includes self, me and excludes no one. What guides through the maze of consciousness, the influence of energy, the perception of the mind is Self-honesty.
Self-honesty is the compass as I do not accept anything less than who I really am as LIFE.
To actually self-realize what is best for all starts with here within applying Self-honesty: What is really the best for me?
This leads to the question of Who I really am in this existence, on this earth, as a human being.
I am here - and it is not a location, it is a starting point, a statement, a decision: Who I am? All what is HERE. I am all ways Here.
This is the eye of the needle: I am taking responsibility for who I am - if I am all what is here, that means I take responsibility for all, I want the best for who I am, which is all.
Yet the process starts with SELF here as Self has been accepted and allowed to manifest self-limitation which through being able to be unaware of what is Self, the 'Who I am?' and what is Self-responsibility.

Self-responsibility starts with Self-honesty: the acknowledge and the investigation of self-limitation, which can only be denied up to a certain amount of common sense and cross-reference.

It's so simple if we look at that all what is here is accepted by everyone, and anyone states that it is not the best - then why does not change it?
To try to change what is here - being referred as 'self' or 'reality' - and not being able to: means one has limits. Who wants to face that directly?
Self-honesty means to not accept the self-limitation from within, but to dig deeper, investigate further, becoming practical on facing and understanding oneself.

What is best for oneself is when there is no conflict within, there is no doubt, no fear, no shame, no regret - at all! If one states that it is the best to have such reactions - is it really self-honesty?

What is best for oneself on the PHYSICAL level is more simple - it's obvious, undeniable: healthy food, water, shelter, air, space, tools - education, care - the best to have these and the worst to not getting access to these simple physical needs. This is fact - who does not agree?

To have what requires a human for LIVING is not default, not in this current human system, oh no, not at all - yet everyone expects it, because it is right to have a living, alright? To be left out from the undeniable, obvious needs to be a healthy human is the worst for the individual - this is not rocket science, just simple common sense.

What also should be pretty straightforward is to realize that I have given what I have - many can argue with this by saying they have worked for it, earned it - but if we look at all the things from a holistic, global perspective - all is given - food, shelter, water, even the given value to money. Don't look at only from human perspective, look at from the ecosystem, animals, plants, the weather, the planet, the solar system - we actually do not own anything except being obsessed with 'thin king' ideas in the mind, the virtual self-imaginary device meanwhile the actual life, the body, the resources 'just' all ARE in the physical.

So in a way - we own only our mind - even our body is from the planet's ecosystem and the consequence of that mind - which is what we come up as who we think we should imagine and behave ourselves to be - on all other levels we are all just physical substance cycles. It's a perspective - but should be investigated! And a self-honest human will certainly do so if can or willing to break out from the constant occupation from the mind's cycles of self-interest.
Because if we dare to investigate it can become quite obvious that we don't even own our mind, oh no, in a way it owns the human, because it is superior in many ways - it is always one step before where we go, what we see, hear and understand - it is a fundamental spacesuit which through we are interfaced(what a word here inter-faced!) by energies, thoughts, feelings, senses, memories, personalities, definitions, desires which are conditioned to situations, reactions to represent our perception of who we think we are as a person but none of those really matters once our heart stops, it's irrelevant how developed our mind or the skill we have with our mind or with reality once our body dies. So in a way we are inferior to the mind which is inferior to the human physical body - and what are we aware of in the meantime? Not really how these really function, not even 'high-science' understands the brain, the cells - so to actually realize that we lack real understanding can be mind-blowing and one wants to understand how the mind works to be able to put it aside to face reality directly without schema, polarity, projection, definition - just to experience things as they are, directly. This is imperative.
And the mind is not the boogieman here - it's also a consequence, a systematic reflection, a mirror for and as self which with we can face and realize who we are and who we are not.

The interest of self can be revealing and it's consequence within action/manifestation we create or accept each day, each moment - and to see that, to understand it, to be responsible for it and not just face it but commit self to change is Self-honesty.

Within self-honesty it is obvious that there is serious problem within this human system - beyond the total self-interest, which makes the human believe that it's own mind is right, that others can be left out from the equation, just using the whole to get, but not give back, to expect to have but allow others not to have, to not take responsibility for one's action, consequences, not considering how others will experience that - it is obviously not the best for all.

So from all of this, it should be clear what is the best for all - it's not that difficult, complicated as it might seem from one's mind - and if it is - means oneself is so crowded with the ideas of one's self-interested ideas that can not see through from one's mind into actual, physical reality and therefore Self-honesty should be considered, embraced, understood and practically applied unconditionally.

To be able to guide me in thought, word and deed to always, in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all starts with self - to stop the ideas of self-interest, to stop justify self's survival and protection as the most important thing even beyond others needs.

The reality is quite serious - our very living environment is being abused so much that more and more areas are becoming uninhabitable, the destruction of the forests, the dieing of the ocean, the pollution of the water shows us that we are irresponsible, not considering others, just our own interest and even that not really, because we are so obsessed with the IDEAS of our interest, that we do not see that it is absolute self-deception.
By investigating our system, it can be quite shocking to realize that current forces directing the faith of humanity cannot be trusted - corporations driven by insane obsession for exploiting profit, governments lead by corrupted individuals, religions motivated by fundamental extremism, it is an absolute denial of common sense and real compassion - let's face it - it can be war at any time basically anywhere if these interests meet or oppose - only people with absolute integrity, committed who stand together for taking responsibility for all life can make a difference and it is not a choice to realize that who has the potential then should stand up to it.
I do not say I will be politician, but within self-honesty I could not sit around and just 'enjoy' all my life while being aware of that the half of the world is burning. It is also to realize that what we are facing currently is a long-term consequence for the abdication of responsibility for humanity as a whole and the correction cannot be done overnight but requires dedication, consistency and principled living and within that prioritizing of our lives is required by letting go self-interest but not within inner conflict/friction, rather than by Self-honest investigation and actually realizing that the starting point of any self-interest which excludes all life is based on fear, a delusion thus it is common sense to let go...

So to start standing up to what is best for all starts with stopping self-deception, expressing oneself as practical changing, sharing/applying oneself and simply give as would like to receive. This means that what I have given - I should give naturally as well.

We can dream about everything should be free, but there are limitations within resources yet it could be abundantly enough for all of us here if we could learn to give unconditionally, but everybody expects to get first and this does not really flow very well.

So for me, guiding my thought, word and deed to ensure that the outcome of my actions are supporting the problems what are blocking to be this world to be the best possible for all.

And then it means becoming practical, becoming skilled, becoming effective, becoming involved with issues, problems, facts and taking responsibility by living an example of giving as would like to receive on all levels of human living - with myself, within family, within society - no matter where I am, I know who I am, I am committing myself to be what is best for all. That's my name and the only relevant name we should live up to.

Yet I do not deny there is individual expression within all of us - that's why I'd support all equally, because every individual is unique if nurtured, given equally.

And the current system and it's participants has accepted itself existing as millions starving to death, hundreds of thousands are killed in wars every year - yet we, as being in Europe, America or in any 'more rich' country - we, who have food, shelter, health care, education, clean water - we have given but if we do not give as well - what that tells about ourselves? That is the point of self-honesty.

We can sure can enjoy our lives and not constantly strive on problems to solve but it is also the point of self-honesty on how much one can stand up to others as self - and it's a process but there are tools, people to support with the practical application.

And the people who are ready to support - they are no different - they have given support and they give support - and they do not expect anything but apply self, be honest and stand up for all life.

There are economic, political systems in this world what are supporting inequality, what should be re-aligned with what would be the best for all but it does not necessary means one only has to solve those problems - it is also the same on individual level - when I face a friction/conflict - with my partner or in my family/at work - when about to react with frustration, fear, anger, jealousy, desire etc - it is also the point of application of Self-honesty: to slow down within for a moment, to consider all participants of the situation objectively, to consider what would be the practical solution for all, including myself here and apply that.

If we can consider and find out the best possible outcome in each situation for all participants by becoming aware of our starting point, the consequence of our actions and the responsibility we have for it - we can align and change ourselves to be able to make the decisions by what we act in reality to actually live by the principle of what is best for all.

This brings back to the point of the actual, walkable, day to day application of how to guide myself to ensure that accumulating actions/consequences what is manifests what is best for all.

• First of all working through the resistances I face to certain aspects of my life - establishing more stability, consistency within my self-forgiveness, sharing and supporting myself and others within becoming aware of how reality works and be able to apply practical change.
• Stopping reacting by and to fear by slowing down within, writing down the reactions, mind-constructs and cross-reference self-dishonesty to be able to understand and change to what is considering all participants in the equation.
• Standing up to investigating how my mind works, how to stop the inner conflict, prevent any blame, projection, attention diversion, obsession, possession, desire, fear to distract me from what is the priority within my commitments.
• Focusing to give what I have given within the practical knowledge on how the mind works, supporting the education, process of self-forgiveness and finding stability and consistency in and as the human physical body as the expression of life and also within the physical aspects, meaning supporting research and change within the world system, it's economic, law and monetary systems, exposing inequality, abuse and proposing more practical, equal ways to co-exists within self-and others respect both on on the physical and beingness level.

[JTL Day 208] Open Source Investigation part 1

After walking through my last topic of 'Tiredness' - I head on the concept of Open Source - starting
with generic information and then specifying into the details, continuing with decomposing and re-aligning my own perceptions/definitions/personality manifestations with principled, practical self-correction and commitment in regarding to the concept of 'Open Source'.

I start Open Source with what I know already and how I've became aware of.

This term came to me from the programmer world, where people are writing software codes what run on computer systems. The source code, what is the software, basically the mechanism, the program, the behavior, the form and actions computers and programmable machines do. The internet we use, websites, operating systems, machines, creative software, the whole infrastructure now runs by computer programs which all has source.

The source code is basically large sets of statements, conditions, loops and data combined together to handle and process information.

Specifying Source as 'Open', it seems to be obvious that there is 'Closed Source' code as well - this code optimally can be financed, someone would pay for what it can do. Banks for instance pay quite big fortunes to develop the source code handling their monetary operations, those must be exceptionally reliable and predictable, fast and stable - people has to be educated and organized, worked, directed to that level of efficiency, what is worthy of quite good money in the market.

There is however, 'free source' - people are making quite huge effort to ensure that the code they write, the software they develop, that has to be free, available for anyone, anytime.

Free source is not the same as Open source - there is some software what are free, but can not be changed, re-used, they has to remain as have been made - and to use freely.

Open source means anyone can 'fork'(copy and modify and reuse) it and surprisingly there is a great amount of reliable, stable, efficient open source software on the internet because those developers/coders/programmers/managers has the vision, the idea that these things what these open source software do should be available and basically free for anyone unconditionally.

Most programmers do know quite a lot about these paradigms, I also got familiar with this at the university from about 1997, and this existed way before that since the 1950's - anyone is interested can check out there:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Open_source

There are a couple of foundations about it, I just list some of these

"Open source is a development method for software that harnesses the power of distributed peer review and transparency of process. The promise of open source is better quality, higher reliability, more flexibility, lower cost, and an end to predatory vendor lock-in."

• http://opensource.org/about

"The Free Software Foundation (FSF) is a nonprofit with a worldwide mission to promote computer user freedom and to defend the rights of all free software users."

• https://www.fsf.org/about/

There are many-many non-profit organizations what are aligned with the Open Source model and surprisingly there are a LOT of Corporations what are actively supporting these communities with financial, technological and other support.

Their interest meets with the open source community standards within developing reliable and highly efficient software as they have recognized the power within the distributed peer review and transparent development/testing/application process.

There are Licenses with one can Release software and it's source code and that License is to ensure that the source is not used for profit, corporate interest by itself, but it must remain as free for all.

"The GNU General Public License is a free, copyleft license for software and other kinds of works.
The licenses for most software and other practical works are designed to take away your freedom to share and change the works. By contrast, the GNU General Public License is intended to guarantee your freedom to share and change all versions of a program--to make sure it remains free software for all its users."

• http://www.gnu.org/copyleft/gpl.html

Can Open Source be effective? Sure it can - there is Linux - an operating system which is really effective and popular among coders/system administrators. Anyone does not know Linux should check out because it is an outstanding creation which is just one of the example of Open Source Communities.

Now, I bring in an other Open Source concept, which is Open Source Democracy/Government/Politics.

Who read my blogs and listen my vlogs could notice that I've decided to stop excluding the law/politics/economics from my expansion of awareness. Not that I've lost my interest within Self-realization, Unification, stopping the Mind and transcending all perceived separation; it's quite the opposite!

I've realized that all what is here is entails who I am and the limit of my awareness is the exact limit of my responsibility I stand up to, which is still the process of birthing Life from the physical as individual, but as equal as one as Humanity as a whole as well - and that entails, encompasses, includes all systems, especially those what are the most relevant within influencing, directing the daily living of human lives.

The monetary, political systems are also part of ourselves and it is crucial to understand that because of we separated ourselves from the whole within perception and by that within our action, we has lost control, power and direction within giving away our responsibility of all as equal as one and only considering our own self-interest, our own happiness, which starts and for most people ends with survival.

By walking this process of Self-honesty it became clear that each and every single human being is equally responsible for the current state of earth - and it is not a bad thing! By taking responsibility we can nurture our awareness, in fact the very creation of ourselves of who we are as co-creators to recognize the opportunity to work together for a world which is best for all participants.

It seems to be far-fetched but actually starts with SELF here, realizing that if much more people would participate within the political scenarios with the starting point of giving as we would like to receive - it would quickly accumulate into real changes.

Current political system is like closed source program code - most people do not care about how the system works, they just want the benefits, not wanting to partake within the responsibility, just want the goodies - but actually we, each are unique and if all of us would give a little into the common system with responsibility - the whole world could become Open Source and Free for all - no more surviving, competition, abuse and deception...

For those who dare to walk out from the self-deception of one's own EGO, MIND-Perception - it should be pretty obvious that there is a tipping point from which there is no separation from self and others within responsibility, within awareness - thus real compassion can be re-defined and applied by not just looking at individual lives but as a holistic, whole system. That's where one starts to investigate not only the internal systems within one's behavior/personality patterns but also the external systems, the world system, how humanity is existing currently. What are the current forces directing humanity's destiny and what are the most relevant aspects with what we actually write our own history - and politics is one of that - we can deny it, blame it, exclude it, but those groups/individuals/interests are in directive power currently by having monetary/financial/media/military and political power - that is more relevant than anything else. We can say art, music, movies or even gaymarches are something but in fact not as relevant as the currently existing voting system which uses the deliberate misinformation, psychological warfare and the fact that people do not want to be responsible, they want somebody to have that, take care of that, to actually not to grow up and see the whole world as it is - that is all we have, that is we have for all. And I do not judge those who go to marches, maybe can be effective and for herding but it should not end just walking and shaking our hands but to investigate, engage, initiate and stand up and actually be the living example of change, even if it means to actually find and support people with real integrity, who is transparent, obviously dedicated and principled to remain consistent within considering what would be the best for all - that should be the starting point of politics in the first place - and it should not be the responsibility only for some while the others are just pawns of these power games. It is always equal and one - in the smaller - just like the greater - "I am always equal and one with all what I accept and allow within oneness and equality as SELF"

Just like we accept and allow our mind, thoughts, feelings, emotions, personalities, moods, reactions, memories, energies, associations, intuitions, desires, fears to constantly influence, direct us to not be able to stand up, get free and actually have the only relevant decision to make: to be responsible for all what is here.

That is where I see politics coming in - previously I had the impression that with art I can influence change but not really - art is also, just like spirituality: a product, a concept, stripped away from real freedom and the only way to be free is to take responsibility and not stop until it's absolute.

So I see that to actually participate within politics - is not really different than participate within community - and I know how corrupted, deceptive, twisted and foggy the current political forces can be seen, perceived, judged, concluded to, but it is imperative to realize that this is part of it's deception.

Just like we feel that we need our thoughts to automatically be accepted and energize, stimulate us with the inner friction to energize us to positive feelings, negative emotions to move us - the same is with the external systems - but we can take over within our mind and remain present, directive, and the same way we can participate within politics also step by step to embrace what is here and actually make a difference, live an example of change, to support. So for that I dedicate these posts to Open Source - because it's transparent, it's open, it's unconditional and can be used for real good.

"The open-politics theory, a narrow application of open-source governance, combines aspects of the free software and open content movements, promoting decision-making methods claimed to be more open, less antagonistic, and more capable of determining what is in the public interest with respect to public policy issues."

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Open-source_governance

I find this as much as the free software quite fascinating, especially by seeing how much actually computer and program source code now is capable, able and actually do for the people, communities and in overall for all of humanity.

I use commercial software - and yes, I even pay for it, I still understand that specific software to develop: people do it as their job and expecting a wage, a living to earn by that and by considering the effectiveness of the software I buy/subscribe to use for those I am deciding to.

Now, there is also a great habit of people(especially the young) to get and use closed source software without paying - "downloading the cracked version" which even can be considered as crime at most places, because it is being judged as intellectual property.

I did that too - basically copied stolen code and used it - games, tool software, operating systems - I was like - "there is nothing I really steal, it's not like a car, the original remains if I copy it and anyway I do not have money for it and they should share it freely".

Since walking the Process of Self-realization - I was able to recognize that in fact I can take responsibility for all aspect of my life, my reality, starting with what I accept and allow and actually do and by considering the computer software too.

It is not a simple topic to discuss and I do not judge those who use cracked software, just I decided to pay when it is closed source and of course - I still can decide whether I need that specific software if it's not of Open/Free/Public License and if so, then considering how to get it with consideration of who've made it available - meaning for instance paying for it.

This is still a new thing for me, since a while I've tried to 'live' like this and by having a job, working for salary I can afford to pay for some software that I use.

And it is not even about considering my guilt-ego-trip as beating my chest that I am so great now - it's just my common sense and decision to live by.

If I like a software and it's made by a company/corporation - I want to support their work, their effort - and by that I do not just receive, I give too - kind of equal relationship.

Even if I download and use a software with Free/Open/Public License - it still does not mean that it has been created effortless, rather than the people who've made it, ensured that their (many times really hard) work is for giving it to all unconditionally.

It's kind of a concept to get accustomed to that always to look for what we can get, access, receive or expect, even demand but we are in this system just like everybody else - time and resources are not infinite.

By studying the ecosystem, nature, the land, animals, plants - it is the same - they get and give - in the long term there is an equal relationship, a balance or equilibrium, in a way it is one system.

To recognize this as a human individual might be challenging if one constantly focuses to one's needs, one's perspectives, one's self-interest, but in a way - it is also common sense to give as we would like to receive, because by that way we empower not only ourselves to practical equality but also encouraging others too.

That is why I work on this concept - because it is promising, it is something we can learn from - for instance this guy:

Rushkoff challenges us all to participate in the redesign of political institutions in a way which enables new solutions to social problems to emerge as the result of millions interactions. In this way, online communication may indeed be able to change offline politics.

http://www.rushkoff.com/open-source-democracy/

So for further investigation I will investigate these publications and continue on expanding with this topic:

https://thomaslagrua.wordpress.com/

http://livingincomeguaranteed.wordpress.com/

Information Secrecy vs Information Accountability

Open Source Direct Democracy - Living Income Guaranteed

Douglas Rushkoff - Open Source Democracy

[JTL Day 192] 10. Making Love Visible part 1

Continuing with my Declaration of Principles

10. Making Love Visible – through me not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what it means to LIVE.

"Love = I will not accept or allow anything less than who you are as one and equal with me. When I see that you are not honoring you as who you are - I will directly intervene and assist and support you, how necessary - so you in this moment may realise/see/understand what you are accepting/allowing within you that is not of who you really are."

Starting Love Here - with exploring what Love is in terms of Self and within that what Self is and within that what Self is not as what is not yet Living as what would means to really LIVE.

Within each breath I take and I am in the mind: I am not Living, I am trapped within the religion of my self-created reality of the delusion of self-love which in fact not visible, which is in fact not physical, not real.

Within walking the process of Self-honesty it is clear that any love which is not expressed, shared, lived directly in and as physical earth is not real, only seems to be in the mind as a make-believe, as a bubble of energy, as an interest of which not the best, which will burst inevitably.

Love starts with Self Here - thus not accepting anything less than who I really am within absolute Self-honesty, within the utmost respect for the Breath of Life within and as me which equal within all.

Not accepting myself to be influenced, stimulated, mesmerized, trapped by thoughts, feelings, emotions, images, pictures, memories, personalities, characters, desires, fears, phobias, obsessions, possessions, which with I would justify to myself or others that any perceived separation of me into and as the mind would be valid, acceptable or even for a moment be tempted to tell me who I am and what I would want to accept as myself for now or for any given moment from now on indefinitely.

Standing up to my self-accepted limitations to recognize the compromise within the false refugee I've taken into and as the polarity of the mind as the mesmerizing energetic states of positive and negative energies in and as my physical body, forming anything beyond one and equal present physical self living here in each breath.

Whenever or wherever seeing myself accepting compromising self-honesty at a slightest level, recognizing the most relevant mathematical equation of physical consequence of 1+1=2, meaning realizing the self-responsibility for any inner reaction of doubt, fear, judgement or inner definition to limit myself which always accumulate into what is not the best for me, for all others equally, thus committing myself to forgive myself for what I am accepting and allowing and standing up to stop and within stopping actually changing myself and live this change making my love to myself, to all life equally visible and ground to earth due to the accumulation of physical consequence one act at a time, one breath at a time.

Realizing the solution of that I can understand, stop and change myself, sharing myself walking through all layers of self-dishonesty unconditionally, I am re-defining what is love which is real and can be shared in and as the physical.

Within partnership, agreeing with self to stand unconditionally, to stand and walk with an other within an agreement unwavering, undefined within self-direction and manifesting love in the way of giving which I want to receive, meaning care, trust, tenderness, stability and practical equality and within this direction facing anything compromising this from within or with out and taking responsibility for and investigate, cross-reference, forgive, commit myself to stop and really change and explore what is real love.

Within this Starting point it is here what I still accept and allow within my mind in forms of resistance and and attraction and realizing that it is of self-definition, of self-judgement, of self-dishonesty which can be understood, written down, walked through with Self-forgiveness until I am here with the awareness of what must be stopped and how exactly I am participating within what and how exactly must be stopped participating breath by breath.

Starting with exploring what resistances I've defined towards the word love, thus manifesting polarities, different poles to be reacted to at the same time towards the word LOVE thus whenever hearing, thinking, reading, saying the word love, associating, reacting automatically, activating energetic reactions, definitions, perceptions of virtual personalities about what love is and in fact thus giving my mind, circumstances, physical reality, myself permission to constantly timeloop within the exact same patterns without being aware of, being able to stop and really change and transcend and explore what would really mean to live the unconditional love in each moment equally.

Walking through the layers of perceptions of self-defined idea and experiences of love to explore what it really means to live love free, not defined by the quantity of it's subject, and also within that realizing that if love is objected to something, it is already of separation, of definition, of mind, thus realizing the true love is when there is no separation, no judgement exists and within that realizing that I am not only responsible for myself but all what is here, everybody on earth, in this existence and to be able to stand up from my self-interest and mind-perception to live according to what is best for all as equal as one in each action can become the Visible Love I am aligning myself to LIVE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear from the word LOVE because defining it as deception, defining it as not real, as defining it as failure, trap, illusion, delusion, because whenever I've defined myself with it, whenever I've tried to believe the reactions, feelings, personalities built with it, it always concluded within falling, shattering, being completely false, not real, not true and thus defining it as avoidable, resistible, deniable and never considering to realize the fact that my starting point, my very relationship with the word love is of self-dishonesty, fear and the word itself is only can be what I give meaning to it and manifest it through that, thus the common sense is to decompose all patterns I consist of in regards to the word love first to see who I've accepted and allowed myself to became already on the physical manifestation in relation to the word LOVE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define love as unconditional, as eternal, as unquestionable, unwavering, and seeing this world, this physical reality, this manifested human system as in fact is, concluding that real love does not exist, only interest, thus real self does not exists, only self-interest and defining it as tough, cruel, rude, and within defining it as, defining myself as that as well, thus wanting to be and become tough, cruel, rude as this system has become to be equal with it, to be able to deal with it within believing that whatever the system is like, I must be in order to be able to remain, to be effective, be myself within and not realizing that I've defined myself of this world, I've defined myself of my reaction, relationship to the perception I've defined seeing in relation to my self-defined idea of love and thus limiting myself to what I've defined without questioning, without being able to understand, stop and change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself naive, childish, delusional because in terms of my definition of unconditional love not seeing reflected back in this world, thus defining myself through it, in fact reflected back within the judgement I accept within my own reaction to what I actually do and what I see others doing and thus influenced by my definition and acceptance manifesting exactly what I've judged and defined as the opposite of unconditional love.

I forgive myself that I have previously fallen into love which means defining something what I've loved as being obsessed with as wanting to have and ensure being able to remain having, possessing, the subject of my love, the reaction to the definition of my love, the person I've defined to be needed to be able to love, to feel love, to feel loved, to be equal and one with the definition of love and not realizing thus separating myself from the ability to directly myself here LIVE LOVE.

I forgive myself that I have never realized that holding onto ideas and images and pictures and memories and hopes and desires and superimpose that into physical relationship with someone can not be real love because disregarding what is here, who I walk with thus the expectations to love, live in fact meaning compromising self-honesty by making love conditional, not self-directed and of and as the polarity of judgments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word love, it's meaning, not facing it with the perception that real love not exists within this world and accepting it and not realizing that I can re-define love and I can live what love would really mean as unconditional standing for self as all as one as equal and seeing practically what it means to manifest it and seeing facts here and not react to what is already manifested as consequence thus focusing to practical solutions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define love according to media, books, movies, how others explain, define, show what love is and defining it as bullshit, superficial and delusional and defining love according to when multiple self-interests stand together and thus reacting to it and manifesting resistance towards it and that energetic reaction to influence, direct me and feel separated from others, and judging that as not cool and thus separating myself from my own reactions towards my self-defined love instead of letting go all definitions, judgements, reactions, automatic feelings, thoughts, and use common sense and see facts here and support all participants as giving as would like to receive equally..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define common sense based, calm, not overwhelming, not storming, going up and down and emotional, feeling-based consideration/definition/value of love as not real as defining love based on emotions, energies, feelings and never question my starting point, each and every single tiny reactions I accept, allow and accumulate into my personality to automatically influence, suggest, tell me what is love, when to love, what to love, how to love and thus let go facts, reality, equal consideration of all participants here physically.

I forgive myself that I have never realized that love can be visible and real if it is in and as the physical, not in separate minds, not in feelings, emotions, but the flesh involved WITHOUT the mind, consciousness and thus to be able to really love myself, others it is crucial and inevitable to purify myself from all energetic mind reactions, patterns programmed with words within with Self-forgiveness to the utmost specificity to see what I have allowed myself to manifest and taking responsibility and really commit myself to find practical ways to change.

I forgive myself that I have never considered to face the fact that I do not know what love is and how to really love myself or others and thus using patterns, images, reactions to define me regarding to love, how to live in love and never realize the polarity within, the starting point of negative energy of self-accepted hate towards what I accept and allow within self-separation, self-dishonesty, self-delusion and yet not standing up to it as myself to face equally what I consist and exist as and thus realize exactly how and what I should and in fact can stop breath by breath with Self-correction within Principle and re-definition of words.

I forgive myself that I have never realized that why in fact I've allowed myself to hate and blame for that hate and what is that hate within me and allowing the polarity within with hate-love and never realize that anything of this polarity is not living but programmed consciousness systems for it's own self-interest, excluding others, secluding self into this one-dimensional energy-game wherein running from what is defined as negative and be attracted towards what seems as positive and never realizing the whole cycle is the same and recreational timeloop within the same self-dishonesty as fear and never realizing the exit from it with slowing down within, writing all patterns down and forgive each pattern I've allowed to participate within and commit myself to stop unconditionally and thus let go and really transcend the polarity game of love-hate and find out what would really love mean without conditions, separation, fear.

to be continued

Beyond walking to LIVING principles and the process of alignment I share what supports me extensively by walking with EQAFE interviews - there are many interviews for Self-support in relation to love, relationship, agreement, just to mention some:

• EQAFE - Relationship Success support series
• EQAFE - What is it about the Experience of Love/Attraction
• EQAFE - How Purifying Love would enhance Equality in this World.

[JTL 145] Positive and negative energetic delusions part 1

Within this post I continue walking through self-correction for the specific words I’ve reacted to by gaming which I’ve allowed myself to define lacking, needing, desiring within the starting point of self-definition and fear. Let’s see, a simple sentence of my story of gaming what consists of ‘behind the curtains’, meaning not just the conscious mind, what I see myself as thinking, feeling, but beyond that, behind that, below that, under that, what can be written out within directly and exploring with Self-forgiveness to see how exactly I’ve accepted self-limitation to become and evolve to be.

If one starts to walk this process – it will seem like endless – all acceptance, allowance can be explored within practical Self-honesty and first of all to know the machine(self) to stop the machine and live real transcendence – which is obviously not just meditating and stimulating energies and feel awesome but to stop limitation, to be able to take responsibility for more and more until one can stand with all what is here and always consider, act according to what is best for all. That is always simple, obvious, here, but if one does not see, realize, understand – then one can walk a PROCESS of Self-realization, which is DESTENI is standing for – no need to believe, investigate, apply, realize, expand and LIVE.

So walking the process of decomposing the energetic mind – coming from my childhood computer gaming point.

First scenario: electrified – when I saw other kids gaming, controlling the game with joystick, keyboard and the character in the game moved accordingly and avoiding enemies and going through obstacles, I’ve felt like THAT’S IT – IT IS FASCINATING, EXCITING, INTERESTING, STIMULATING.

I’ve defined my real physical living as boring, robotic, limited, predictable and tiring.

Decompose positive and negative judgment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my real physical living with words and then by definition I accept that in the next moment without directly experiencing, physically feeling but already having the definition not to experience, feel, be directly here because I’ve attached an energetic experience of ‘negative’ to it and trying to avoid, separated from that energetic experience.

I forgive myself that I have never questioned my automatic definition mechanism within myself and not realizing that it is myself only who I give permission each time for any judgment, definition what I think of in any moment wherein I am not directly here, I am not experiencing what is here, I am not physically here therefore I am existing only within the self-accepted, self-defined, self-limited automatic energetic mind.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that within the definition of something as ‘negative’, which is not pleasant for me for a reason – I have never questioned the initial self-judgment of why in the first place I go into the energetic charge of ‘negative’ – instead of realizing that the duality, polarization of the energetic mind within me is the act of escape from what is here therefore the moment I accept and allow to go into the trinity of

1. me, who is defining
2.  the subject of my definition
3.  the act of defining

wherein I am not aware of what is real but only the separation – by the separation, as the separation, the starting point of separation, the reason for separating myself to be one and equal with what is here what I in fact fear to face, directly live therefore in any time if I define, think, judge, categorize within my mind automatically – I face the fact that I am lost within the consciousness systems which is all the systems, energies, definitions, relationships, polarities therefore I am not living, only being stimulated to react as an organic robot.

I forgive myself that I have never realized the common sense as the solution to stop myself defining within myself automatically experiences, events, physical processes by directing myself to be here, directly the physical, remaining here, feel the breath, be aware of the presence moment by moment.

I forgive myself that I have never realized the obvious need for applying Self-investigation for the self-automatic definitions I live out, act out with slowing down within, always, constantly, writing out all words I react to, because within writing I am directing myself to put everything from my mind into this physical reality wherein I can see what I allowed myself to became.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the energetic reaction of definitions, thinking, feeling and deluding myself completely with the obsession with the ‘positive’ in a hope that it is really the solution while not considering that negative and positive is the same kind of energy, only the polarity, the direction of the energetic movement is different, so whether within I participate – I am responsible for the others to create as well as positive is always relative to negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define electrifying experience when I am excited, curious, fascinated, interested within what I experience and within defining it as ‘positive’ in fact I never question why in the first place I allow myself to automatically go to positive and not seeing the FACT of already having a relationship with ‘negative’.

I forgive myself that I have not realized the common sense to investigate automatic ‘negative’ experiences as well as ‘positive’-ly defined experiences as the same, as self-definition, the act of disregard of what is here, and never realizing that losing my real power as absolute self-will, self-direction, self-presence, self-consistency accumulates within each and every single participation within thinking by focusing to what is only self-created and in fact delusional and serves only self-interest within the obsession with self-definition, the energetic experience of ‘negative’ and ‘positive’.

I forgive myself that I have not realized the common sense within equalizing myself and embracing all what is here as it is without judgment, without the need to be driven by a personality of what I use to tell me which is good, which is bad for me and according to that acting in the world system automatically to fulfill who I’ve defined myself to be and who I want to be, specifically who I want to be defined by myself automatically.

I forgive myself that I have never realized the Solution to become equal and one with all what is here literally without any limitation as always remain inner silent and embrace what is here and trust myself without a single thought, trusting myself to act, fall, stand up and learn just as animal, human children learn to walk, act without a thought, just direct physical expression.

I forgive myself that I have always praised energetic experiences, definitions, thoughts, positive, negative instead of seeing that all what I seek, want is be directly here and experience everything as myself as equal and one and then be able to express myself without any self-limitation.

I forgive myself that I have never considered the solution to become the creator of myself, my reality directly by letting go the addiction to define, to use reasons and justifications to define positive and negative in order to try to improve myself and never seeing that with the fuzzy logic personality matrix, definition by definition in fact, really I am separating myself from what is really here, from my own human physical body, from all other beings, because I become unable to experience directly, only by definition, reaction.

I forgive myself that I have never realized that all ‘ancient’ books, scriptures, stories, legends about superhuman, master, ascended, guru, buddha, god is a reference to what ANYONE can become if being able to practically transcend their own mind, the 'own' polarity definitions, the act of judgments, definitions, the positive, the negative and allow ourselves to directly experience what is currently here.

I forgive myself that I have never realized the deception of praising consciousness, mind, thinking as better, superior, greater, more important, real and degrading direct physical, flesh, the reality here as lesser, limited, irrelevant meanwhile all within the current system which is relevant is physically measurable, directly and always here, therefore if anyone wants, desires, hopes after power – real power over and within self – must require to come back, ground oneself into and as the physical, moving here without moving within and as the energetic mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the temptation of positive, love, energy, beauty and not realizing that all is only self-generated by thoughts, feelings and emotions which are not directly me here, only a self-accepted energetic relationship manifested within and as my human physical body here.

I forgive myself that I have never realized that the human physical body contains and entails of different levels of minds, which are merged into one and that is called myself meanwhile these layers can be investigated, understood, walked through and stopped participating within breath by breath, letting go definition by definition, reaction by reaction, limitation by limitation and being able to be here, always, directly constantly.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to limit myself within the belief that the reality, the physical realm here is not pleasant, the actual, current human system as REALLY exists with all the FACTS here I’ve defined as avoidable, because within the already self-accepted automatic mind who I’ve defined myself to be within action, I’ve always concluded that things what exists here are NEGATIVE and within experiencing it by definition, losing myself within the experience of self-definition of ‘negative’ and never considering STOPPING defining as negative and developing the ability to embrace it as it is undefined who we really are here within and as existence.

I forgive myself that I have stopped investigating how reality, the mind, the world system really works and all the dynamics, relationships have been manifested, because I’ve defined it as too intense, defining myself as lesser, smaller, insignificant in relation to the WHOLE and not realizing that within participating this singular self-definition I accept the greatest self-limitation automatically, and expanding on that only, I develop ways to justify why I do not take responsibility for all what is here.

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Remember, nothing is what it seems and all is in reverse - nothing and nobody can be trusted in terms of what is true, as Bernard Poolman stated out: "There is no such thing as truth - only denial of what is here.".
So the 7 years of journey to life is a group effort within individuals walking their visible process to let go each and every single denial of what is here, which is obviously not a 'nice picture' but to be able to change it, we have to see it as it is directly without being reacted with 'negative' and wanting to stimulate ourselves to 'feel positive' - one must find the pace within what can effectively remain stable in the system while not accepting it as ourselves.

"Be in the system, but not of the system" - yet the system is also ourselves, so each inner reaction what with we define it - we in fact deny our currently manifested nature and until that is not stopped, transcended - we can not understand our creation to realize what must be practically done in order to change and manifest heaven on earth - which should be here, not projected AFTER death. And one practical step to heaven to give as we would like to receive - food, shelter, education, health care, water - within the system it can be distributed with the proposal of LIVING INCOME GUARANTEED. Check it out - it is down to earth - each mother knows what a child requires for nurturing - that to give to all first is practical love - and then we can play around but this is first priority - if one has problem to get it - requires process of understanding how things are, what is real life and what is of mind-programmed CONsciousness system of limitation.

An outstanding blog for realizing creation bit by bit, word by word: http://practical-desteni.blogspot.com

Okay, that's it for today, enjoy breath, explore the physical, accumulate actions what is best for all.

[JTL 114] TV Series Mind Patterns Decomposition part 1

So it's like There are Episodes, Seasons.

These in general come week after week/month after month.
And Movies are not quite the hype in these days, but most of the people watch series.

More suspense, longer story, deeper character building, bigger tension.
And somehow they just happen to end an episode right after something very fascinating about what will happen in the next moment.

I'm kind of the guy who rather waits for a season to finish first and then watch them consecutively than wait for the story week by week/month by month - I want to direct the speed of walking through the story.

And when I am off sick or particularly I am alone at home, sometimes I am not directing myself watching these series but I am hooked on and simply disregard my priorities, even if it is tiredness, health issue or simply my commitments, work to be done.

And that is obviously what is being addressed, investigated and corrected within these writings here.

In the beginning I was watching series what seemed like secrets unfolding to learn for instance about micro expressions and that was fascinating but then I've realized, there are more dimensions within this devotion to TV series for me.

What is the separation I project out as missing from my life what I want to see on screen and why?

So the first one was Heroes - that fascinated me with a possible future scenario of mutant superheroes and it was cool and these normal guys just happened to have special abilities all of a sudden, what is all kids dream about: to just transform from this normal, average foe to a superhero - or super villain who is way above all others and basically can do anything, except when conflicting other superheros/villains.

That I've started when I was kid - I always felt myself different than the kids around - I was mostly thinking while they were playing around - I have seen this as an extended mental ability which through I could process much more information faster than them and by that I've felt myself superior within - however in the meantime I've felt myself separated, less effective with physical things, especially lack of muscle strength, so I've came up with the idea that my muscle is my mind, that is my weapon, that is my power.

This leaded to thinking more, much more and in a way it was maybe helpful with certain subjects but with most of it not at school - but I was very suppressive, nervous and anxious most of the time.

Especially when realized I was not in the interest of girls, regardless of being favorite of teachers - I just could not manage to grab girls or if I did - it was like a split second and I was unable to speak properly, I felt shame for the great desire towards them as subjects of my hunger for obtaining, wanting.

So this mentalist guys, the psionic, the very smart people who were played well meanwhile being super smart always got my attention - especially those kind of role models in movies, TV series.

And these TV series have their own story, and by that story they unfold new aspects of their life of superpowers what fascinated me.

Also this STORY what intrigues me, like I want to know the END of it, what will be like, and who will WIN, what will be the perspective beyond the last episode - or is there any last episode?

I mean lots of successful series are continuing and just rolling forward and the story is being created throughout the seasons and their only interest is to compel the people to watch the next episode as well.

Because then their work becomes more important, they can get more view, meaning more episodes the Studio get financialized, meaning the Film Crew can get more JOB, days to work on and they can WORK on and on and on meanwhile in fact they enjoy themselves, living in a specific kind of DREAM world, they earn MONEY for it and even better, fans love them, adore them, totemize them, they seem like real heroes in their eyes.

This also happens with movies, but only with the most successful ones, the rest are just popcorn ballast, after a hard, shitty workday, people just buy the ticket, have some action flick wherein some ass is being kicked in a cool way with some groovy sentences exchanged, car chases, explosions and cute faces, great tits and then move along.

When I was kid I watched TV series, kind of liked the story going on, it was this curiosity what drove me to watch the next one - and many times TV series do not work out all the details just like Movies - for instance a bank robbery, many times they just symbolize it, and it is enough - of course the big, cool ones are working the effects out perfectly, but they not necessarily have to.

The personalities, characters, the interactions, the credibility, the BEAT(change) within people what was always interesting for me - how they will get along with the situation, whatever it is - superhuman abilities, alien invasion or just solving a murder case by watching facial expressions.

Many angles this opens up and it is in handshake with cinema/movies - but the TV series are like long term relationships while movies are like one night stands - so movies has to be more perfect and more flickering and more unusual - even in the color they look like surreal in these days - extremely wide angle, oversaturated colors etc but in the TV - it can be normal - just to be a bit more interesting than our normal life - facing daily life stuff what with we can relate - and then facing unusual stuff - or who knows - I've never been in those romantic series but that might just happen without any unusual stuff - just the WAY they show it, they arrange it, they choose the words what they say, the camera how approaches the events, the music/score/sound effects how they art it together - it is just like fascinating.
Especially when we hear in the news about catastrophes, govt scandals, extinction, famine and war every day - we just want to be ENTERTAINed, right?

Well, there are some angles in relation to my experiences towards TV/movies what I will share here to support and assist myself and others within Self-honesty to change my Series/Movies watching from Reactive to Directive in terms of I am remaining in the center of my beingness as presence in breath meanwhile what the Series/Movies bring up in me I can walk through as Mind-reaction within Self-honesty.

What is also my direction here is to not become overwhelmed with the Series/Movies - meaning not allowing to ruin my priorities by 'alright, just watching one more episode, as it is so interesting at this point' - by realizing: 'Well, it will just intensify until the end of the Season' - and many times they 'close' a Season with bringing up much more questions to make people strive and demand for the next Season to see those questions answered and unfold the story more and more and see how this will end.

Typical example is Lost - when it came out many people watched it and I resisted just because if so many people watch it, I certainly don't - and after watching Fringe through what I liked - I was curious about the maker's other works so I tried Lost, but what people told about it was like not so cool:
-Well, it is cool in the first, maybe second Season but from that it is just more and more weird and crazy and nonsensical.
Of course it was nonsense, I was living in jungle, I had taste of real nature and surviving and I grew up near to nature in village, made my own food, fed animals etc - girls with make up, guys with shaved face/chest and fat dude remains fat and they never do normal stuff like toilet or wash clothes only run around with great tension - obviously not real - but the story they pointed the attention to was fascinating for me.

So I watched through some time ago and I understood it quite well and made sense for me.

In the first season there were no answers, not even in the second, third really but then it can make some sense - but for real solution, understanding, resolution - one had to watch through almost to the end, the 6th Season where then it made sense - at least for me.

But it is the same with the mind: one can just observe the reactions, experiences, feelings, but has to see beyond to start questioning.
Then one can start notice the thoughts, backchat, the reactions, the conditions
After that one has to question how and why a certain reaction comes and then can wonder about how to stop it practically.

And after that when starts to stop the automatic program within - starts to really understand what is what one is facing when resistances come, when automatic reactions come so fast that one must investigate further.

Further and further when the whole construct is here - through it's relationships and word-connections, memories, feelings, thought-patterns - all is here - and one is able to stand at the middle within silence and say: STOP and actually stop - and remain stopped and see what is beyond the stopping.
What is the reason of that particular automatic mind-pattern, what was it's origin, it's reason, purpose and what another thing one can discover beyond that.
So then it is also like a Series, there as Seasons within Self-honesty and more and more questions will come and more and more will be unfolded and seen, realized, understood.

But one must have to be practical - still go to work if required, still eat, sleep, clear dishes as it can not be done in a long weekend.

Also the tendency for me when I realize about a pattern that it is consuming too much energy: TIME - then I try to push it, and putting more energy and time into it to 'FINISH' it - computer games I had this to play through, and also when my relationship with my partner did not work - I pushed more and more time and energy into it and eventually I was quite obsessed with it and nothing else I did not care about within the belief, hope and interest of 'sorting it out once and for all and then I will be in peace'.

Also when I smoked - oh shit I've been smoking MJ so much, just doing it 24/7 - I should just smoke it all tonight so then tomorrow I will not smoke it because I won't have.

But the problem was that who I defined, constructed, manifested myself to be as physical human being within interaction it's environment with others, things - that I did not change - the starting point I did not change, so then when I did not have 'entertainment' as Series or 'drug' to push - I automatically created the same circumstances again: even when I decided not to start a series or buy drug - somehow I had stuff, somehow I've seen an episode from something and then I was on the ride again - and then just rushing to it's end and even not really enjoying it because seeing meanwhile that it takes so much time and that I do not really have.
So it's a hamster wheel if one allows it to become especially combining smoking with series - definitely requires some Self-support to stand within Self-direction based on Principle.

It's all about the patterns one allows self to behave, act, interact with-in self, with- out others.
Especially when considering not only Self-interest, but ALL LIFE Interest, being able to not just think, feel according to the goodness of others as well, but actually, REALLY be able to ACT according to WHAT IS BEST FOR ALL - in the economic, political, educational realm of our society.
So all can be reflected back to the question as: WHO I AM? In and as this very life I am being busy here on Earth - and what will remain when I will be gone - and certainly will be gone - only the fool can not comprehend that - so be able to understand that what will remain is the PHYSICAL reality - then one can consider COMMON SENSE and FACTS to work with and support all the children to come who are open, innocent, living beings just as we started here equally.
That equality must be realized, respected and lived so whatever is the pattern within us what do not support to act according to that practical equality - must be sorted out with the tools of Self-support, such as Writing, Self-forgiveness, Self-correction...
That can be started with the DIP LITE course, which is a great way to start exploring what requires to stop the patterns what do not support us, others.

To be continued with Self-forgiveness statements to become aware of the patterns of Self-dishonesty
Meantime I suggest to check out

• EQAFE
• 7 Years of Journey to Life

[JTL 113] Eye of Consciousness and Pain

Eye Seeing as the Systems of Consciousness

Recently I am being introduced to eye pain what assists and supports me to realize the ridiculousness of knowledge and information not lived as myself as equal as one but as separate mind consciousness system manifestations such as thoughts, feelings, emotions, memories.

• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to automatically define anything I look to.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be aware when I use definitions to be my eye of perception.
• I forgive myself that I have not ever even considered to slow down by myself to such a degree within through stopping and breathing to be aware of constant and automatic self-definition as starting point through as the eye of Consciousness.
• I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that all who I perceive myself to be, everything as I define as who I am is of definitions of layers of consciousness of mind as thoughts, feelings, emotions, memories, pictures, definitions.
• I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to directly be my human physical eye without the layer of definition of consciousness of separation.
• I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that through the eye of Consciousness as self-definitions everything is separated from me here within perception and starting point.
• I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to use the 'I' of consciousness as the eye of my perceived self as personality built up on definitions of thoughts, feelings, emotions without ever considering that this is not Life but Lie of self-deceit through separation.
• I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have defined myself to fear from undefined, from unknown as then not being able to separate from what it really is through the definitions of Consciousness.
• I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to become aware of my human physical body in terms of experiencing physical pain when using energy of Consciousness through manifesting an experience of separation from my human physical body.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest myself to have a tendency to avoid pain and to separate myself from the experience of physical pain through reactions and energies from the definitions of Mind Consciousness.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define pain as avoidable unconditionally and not realizing that pain is consequence of starting point of Consciousness which I have no other way but to embrace and stand as equal as one to birth myself as Life from the physical which means to embrace the pain and be aware of it's origin, it's cause and stop participating layer by layer, self-definition by self-definition until I stand undefined without the experience of separation from my human physical body here.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use pain as an excuse to pull back into Mind Consciousness to lick my wounds as defining pain as avoidable in all costs.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept apparently little pain constantly rather than facing pain what seems enormous and great for a short period of time.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define and believe and think that from lots of pain, enormous pain, unbearable pain I can get mad and become insane and lose myself.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept myself to live in the shadow of pain and never facing it directly breath by breath and dare to see it's origin as how exactly I am responsible for the very pain I experience as self-accepted limitation and excuse to not stop participating within definitions of Mind Consciousness System as who I've accepted myself to became and manifest as within and as the Physical.
• I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I can not separate myself from anything here without causing consequences as pain because the very act of separation of energy of Mind Consciousness is the origin of pain.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that each and every single thought is manifesting physical pain within and as my human physical body what if I am not aware of - I will continue without being aware of what I am and actually how I am responsible.
• I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to not be here in all moments whether it is painful or not and not realizing that even within pain I can be here as physical and going into mind and reactions of definitions will not stop the pain only I feel myself separated from it and the solution is to realize the starting point, the physical participation which through I am causing the energy reaction within to manifest the pain and to stop that breath by breath until I am here without the energetic reaction of that specific thought, feeling, emotion pattern of self-definition of mind.

• When and as I look something I remain calm, quiet, silent within and I breathe and I am here and see when I do move within automatically - and if I move - I stop, if I react, I focus on what is here physically, breath, body, facts.
• When and as I have resistance towards stopping thoughts because of pain - I realize thoughts prolong facing pain, not solving therefore I stop thinking and I see what is the source of my pain, how I manifest this pain, I investigate, I explore, I stop internal conversations, reactions, rather I express, write, and forgive myself unconditionally point by point, breath by breath.
• When and as I automatically define something I realize I fear to explore the unknown, the undefined, the direct experience with what is here as who I am, so I stop, I breathe, I embrace, I act, I trust myself as direct physical.

• I commit myself to stop using definitions of the mind, definitions of what I see, what I experience within the realization that through defining I am separating myself from the subject of my definition, I am not direct as equal as one therefore I am not the directing principle here but being automatically stimulated as self-automation as Mind Consciousness System, therefore I stop.
• I commit myself to investigate all layers of Mind Consciousness System what I am not able to naturally, in one moment to stop, and let go through Writing, Applying Self-forgiveness within Self-honesty and Living Self-correction within Self-commitment to stop all definitions, reactions, thoughts, feelings and emotions and directly experience as myself as physical here.

With eye pain - whatever I look I experience pain - and the eye is a very specific, quite sophisticated manifestation - so many fast and precise movements it does, focusing 'automatically' and moving all the time and within eye-pain - I am becoming aware of all the slightest movements of my physical eyes.

Because each tiny movement hurts - through pain I am becoming aware that how I have taken granted my eyes move automatically.

Especially when I think and move within - and the eyes move.

I've noticed this long years ago - when someone is busy within - the eye move quite often - and just to see one's eyeballs - and it is obvious - thinking, images, pictures, reactions.

Apparently just looking around - but is not present - and as the eye moves - the mind moves - reaction after reaction - just like a dream sequence - one's eye is moving around while the eyelids are closed - fascinating. The same here while it's open.
I am sitting on a bus and looking to the seat, the window, the crossroad, the bug on the screen, the light glimpse on the window, the river down there, the trees in the wind, the motorcycle coming through, the other passengers, my cellphone, the eye of the woman in front of me, the girl's legs nearby and her shoes meanwhile:
I think - think think think and react and I do not really see these things - I just glide on the definitions and reactions coming up looking these things - or not even related to these things - but stimulates. Check it out.

When long time ago I pushed lots of psychedelics, this observation assisted me to be aware of when others are busy within or being present - to push them or bring them back here - SNAP - hey we are here - and when one is moving the eye without being present - I can ask - "What's up?", "How is it going?", "What's happening?" - and many ask me how I know that they are thinking.
Well, when one slows down to a certain degree - it is obvious - not even the eye movement can blow the 'cover' of not being here - if someone is HERE - then it is obvious when others are NOT.

Remembering with Bernard - he has applied Self-honesty, Self-forgiveness, Writing for decades to a degree that he was not just able to be here constantly, but he became this presence, consistency here.

So that's why and how he was able to work directly what is here, the physical, the starting point - and if one is walking the Desteni tools for years can let go the busy mind reality for real and experience and deal with what is here.

The 'Eye' of Consciousness, the 'I' as Consciousness must be walked through - to be here without any reaction, definition, thought, feeling, emotion - this is where Life starts, never before.

That's why it is imperative to grasp the Common Sense within the tools provided by Desteni - because it is about real, tangible, practical, down to earth, ground zero physical self-realization, not just some chakra feel-good weekend happiness energy separation mind engine bubble - that is still of systems - and will never be solution for all.

Everything is connected, related and in interaction in this existence as all as equal as one - if one walks through resistances and definitions of the mind - can be really HERE - and can see the deception within Self and Others and really assist and support for All Life's interest. Everything else is Self-delusion and Self-interest.

And this does not mean one should feel shitty and painful all the time - but there is no excuse within this existence and especially in these controversial times about what is Best for all.

If one can not realize what it means or what would be really the practical approach for What is Best for All - then it is a problem, a bubble of separation, a physically manifested consciousness system as Self as Mind secluded and superimposed from it's source as Energy from Physical Substance, from Life.  That to understand I really suggest investing some coins to the Secret History Of Unverse audio series (it's first 5 parts are free to download) because it is explaining with simple terms the relationship between Energy, Substance and Life - and how existence has been manifested as it is from it's starting point which is still here and until we do not change that - we can not change our origin point from Separation to Unification with and as Life as who we really are and were and ever will be.

So it is definitely a journey to grasp, to apply and Live everything what is here and to unfold the secrets what has always been around but we were always just too busy within our Eye of Consciousness Mind System to see through, to see beyond the thoughts, feelings, emotions.

Because as long as we are busy and occupied within our mind - we are not seeing how and why others are occupied within their mind - and we are unable to grasp what is here as current human system of greed, abuse, destruction and rape of Life through physical abuse with Energy of  Mind Consciousness - this is the education, this is the common sense for anybody who can take responsibility, who can be clear enough within to realize the necessity to first stop ourselves and be a living example of stop the Mind Consciousness and assist and support others, for the children to come with a State of the Art Education what is provided here with Desteni tools to really change the systems that Rule Earth, that decide who can live and who will die:

The economic, the political, the monetary system is just like the same as our mind consciousness - if we understand our own mind to a degree to be able to stop - we are able to step beyond self-interest and deal with the systems outside of ourselves and take responsibility for all life and change this floating mudball around the sun to a place where All Life is respected, nurtured and supported equally. For that, we, individuals should and must be the ones who say no to self-acceptance through fear, through excuses and justifications why we accept ourselves within Self-limitation and use the tools what are the most practical and simplistic for letting go all delusions what we got through our family-blood-DNA, through our education, through our media, through our environment which determine and show us equal as one who we really are until we stand up and change.

That's why the 7 Years to Journey to Life has been started wherein many people from all around the world are walking through Consciousness Systems with the starting point as Life - Through blogging, vlogging, Applying and Living Self-forgiveness within Self-honesty.

There is a free course to start if one is willing to give time(which is ourselves) for exploring the tools available for all who can read and can understand the simple math of 1+1=2.

Desteni I Process LITE

Also check out these EQAFE Self-support Audio interviews in the topic of Pain, Eye:

For Self-education:

• Economy: Economist's Journey to Life
• Activism: Activist's Journey to Life
• Creation: Creation's Journey to Life
• Income: Living Income Guaranteed

[JTL 104] Fake fashion, Make up: My story and Self-forgiveness part 1

Hundreds of posters like this in London, Hackney Wick

Walking every day in Budapest downtown I see many(more and more) women are wearing make-up and I always reacted to this and it is time to stop the mind and make my stand to remain undefined and be LIFE.
So let's decompose what I accepted and allowed to be:


I never really liked the whole beauty industry and it was always clear to me that actual girls, women are really becoming fucked up by comparing the brand/media/film/beauty industry-promoted images with how they look and make them react and to compensate their lack of self-esteem, self-trust, self-integrity and inferiority, they fall into the temptation of actually spending money to things what are obviously not healthy, strengthening mind-reactions, fear and not only disrespecting real woman values but actually making beauty something what can be boosted with money and craft, however the real beauty for me was always the actual disregard of any polarity/comparison of whole concept of beauty as it creates ugliness and judgment/separation and always exposes being existing in fear what for me was always like turn off from enjoying beauty as the whole thing is just an experience and only can be enjoyed if priorities are alright, meaning in the danger of death I never care about beauty even about the mythical woman in red dress...

What people do not realize just like with movies that there might be some seconds talk and how they appear: as cool and nice and in fact many people worked on for maybe days/months to sound cool and look awesome with lots of time(and money!). And they record it from dozens of angles and re-record the speak many-many times and it is might not be natural at all. And in post-production a little reverb in the speak make them sound more theatrical and with state of the art visual specialists being payed: in fact anyone can look just anything they like her/him to be seen.
So that within advertisement and films, videoclips and photos can be really deceiving, especially for the generations who grown up with TV and magazines always telling who and what are nice. That influences people, especially who use thoughts, memories, pictures to express themselves to be.

So that goes also with clothes/shoes/boots I've defined as whore-ish and when I had a partner back there who was really nice for me by defailt and I saw her clothed like craving for acceptance and positive affirmation and in fact sex - I always was like "WTF girl you have in your head, your ego needs to die utterly" -  and I just disliked the whole concept of trying to boost beauty with these things as spiky high-heels and white-transparent-camel-toeish revealing pants and stretched nipple-showing shirts and all those things and of course it is me who reacted within but then I realized as I enjoyed it on screen, I did not really enjoyed it with my partner(it was in about 2006) so I always made her naked asap I could and she was just more beautiful like that for me...probably that's why I went to the whole hippie nudist lifestlye after all, to just be as natural as possible without any hiding and manipulation...
I went to the other side of judgment-polarity obviously but the thing what I defined as positive is that you can immediately see what you can get, no hiding, no games, no manipulation with stripes and padded bras and cockteasing bikinis: strange but after everyone is naked it does not fascinates my mind that much - in fact I can see how each pussy is kind of the same, so then what? I can focus on their beingness and see who they actually are. Of course there are some who also use this to manipulate and lure the mind but not that is the 'normal' in that scene but more likely 'I accept you as you look just as you are and you accept me as I am' was for me. Meaning here how people actually look, not how people attach positive energy reaction to self-definition of feeling good being naked among others as that is freedom or any other fall into the mind to tell me what is what instead of directly experience(because then that is the same as with clothes and money). But anyway, if one uses common sense, after backtracking points: money always comes in as directive power - that's why we promote an Equal Money System wherein each can have a life to enjoy first and when everyone is supported, then the rest of the 'resources/energy/money' can be played with but real love and compassion and beauty would be to feed everyone.
Alright, back to the city, every day subway scene, decolletage at my face with narcotic perfumes in the face: I smell bullshit(and lot$ of money) here!

Even there is a part within what was was like this when I was younger: - I am simple, normal, quiet guy, I have no common ground and even chance with those 'worldy sexy rich bitches', so I formed a reaction that it is really bad, at least for me.

That also assisted me to see it more as it is with the analytic mind of 'well how to judge them as bad, well, use logic and not just say bullshit but try to prove my point' so then I came to the conclusion that:

• fashion is always about money, clothes, uncomfortable, body-abusing heels and even in -20c cold wearing skirt thing is so dumb for reaction from men{ and women}
• make-up makes women with no make-up pale and grey 
• make-up also is about money and low-self-esteem and lack of self-trust
• natural beauty exists as not by comparison but self-confidence and self-expression
• on screen with huge and hot lights for filming actually make-up is required to not look like being in oceanic tropical hot jungle
• clothing bitchy fuel perv & rapists mind and objectifying women and brainwash kids that these are the important values, not the real love as equal sharing goods with everyone etc
• not even going into the animal testing part as lots of companies still do that what is absolutely unacceptable

So ranting on these I revealed many as I have formed myself with lots of judgments(among with some what are FACTS) what I walk through here to see what I can stand with what is best for all:

Self-forgiveness: Self-definition about women, reacting to:

Make-up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define women as fake who put on make up and wear obviously uncomfortable clothes, shoes and thinking that she must be really screwed up within to wear that mask to try to make others to love her because she does not love herself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dislike perfumes of women especially those who put on so much I barely can bear it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry for the face of the women who I see put make up on remembering thinking those substances on the skin going into the body, the blood, the brain wreaking havoc in cells.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a woman who has makeup immediately as a no-go for considering for a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that women using dark eye-paint in their makeup that they look like from addams family and thinking that it must harm their eyes and feeling really the opposite of sexual attraction towards them what I think they want to make feel.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that women who go out walking the dog while wearing ridiculously bold and unnatural make up that they must be extremely screwed up within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define make up only cool for special occasions or acting in movies and when seeing somebody in make up I do not really know that they might go to a special occasion or to act in a movie but I still think it is highly unlikely.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to automatically feel positive and sympathy for a woman who does not use make up even it means she does not concealing lack of geometrical perfection within the details of her face.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a woman who wears make up every day can not be 'normal' and defining all women who even I notice wearing a 'basic' make up, they must be lost and fearful within therefore not considering them as beings as equal as me but as feeling pity for them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like wanting to laugh at the women's faces who wear make up sometimes because I feel like I want to laugh at the demon within them what is of fear and the beauty demon what they feed within and as themselves and not realizing that it is of my judgment I face, my demon I want to poke.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself who I am as if I want a partner then definitely somebody who does not wear make up or at least every day for sure not and by that limit myself and judging myself for that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that reacting to makeup actually I am reacting to my self-definitions and nothing to do with the woman's face and the woman's beingness but only myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into conflict within by judging and reacting to make up at all and not realizing that I can have a point where to stand within decision and then simply express without going into self-judgment and never realizing that I go inner conflict regarding to make-up because I see that my definitions of it and about it is not clear, self-honest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not standing firmly within my decision as not wanting to be with a woman who uses makeup by not being sure that with this decision I can have my partner I want to be and also fearing that with this decision I might actually miss the point meaning wearing make up does really matters that much or I just react to my self-definitions as fearing from my belief becoming true that the woman who uses make up might be screwed within and I do not want to be part of that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define make-up as something what I must react with negative feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define make-up as bad because defining and thinking that the woman who puts that up must be and probably is fears from not being beauty enough and defining beauty according to media and brainwash and then by that defining her being brainwashed, lost.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry and fear from not being aware of if a woman has make up and then defining her attractive and believing that I react to herself as defining her as 'naturally she is like that' meanwhile what I adore is her skills and the money she spent on to look like that and the company and all of the things that they did in order to make the product and by that supporting deception, abuse and mind fuck.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel positive by defining that I am glad I am man and not woman and not realizing that it's starting point is fear from how I could act if I were be woman and not realizing that by separating myself from women I actually support fear and deception what is the starting point of women fall into the whole make-up stuff.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate beauty industry and the whole thing that they have lot of money to pay for placing photo-shopped and lots of design and make up-ed women picture all over the city with brands to lure women into inferiority by giving them something to compare themselves with as picture through and as the mind and induce doubt, fear, inferiority what they want to compensate then with the product, believing that if they buy the shit then they will be beautiful and not needing to feel not beautiful and inferior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel angry towards these huge 'beauty demon industry' posters and neon-lighted glasses with apparently beautiful women pictures what are teasing, sexy and wanting to smash these and destroy as being aware how much shit these create within women and men as well by defining normal and nice these what people see every fucking day over and over and over again and feeling angry because feeling myself helpless because everyone accepts it and even myself, only feeling shit about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to overcome anger towards media industry by wanting to find a partner who is just beautiful without any makeup and expensive shit and not realizing that I am already lured into the polarity game of the mind of ugly and beauty and wanting to go to the sunny side, the light, the positive as feeling better when reacting to image what seems beautiful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only solution from this is to accumulate self-stability, self-direction and educate myself and others about what are the real values and to actually stop the mind and assist and support others who are walking the same process to stop the mind of polarity, of energy, of separation, of fear, of self-dishonesty.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge those who fall into the trap of fashion and thought-image-feeling-reaction into and as the mind instead of taking responsibility for and as them as myself as equal as one and see how I am falling into the reaction of polarity of thoughts of mind and realize that in fact from Absolute Self-honesty, it does not matter what is the picture, great looking synthesizer for instance for me: the reaction and energy what is not the physical is the same.

Wow this is kind of a deep topic, I stop it here today, more points, Self-forgiveness, Self-correction will be shared...


Meanwhile educate yourself and others at EQAFE.COM about how the mind and reality and existence and animals and the whole system works to stop being the whore of energy of self-interest and be LIFE and what is Best for all!