dont think

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, define that my thinking is because of tiredness - instead of realizing that my thinking is not directly related with tiredness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am tired.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think when I do not express - instead of realizing - when I do not express - I think.
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself and manifesting self judgment and thoughts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define thinking as energy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to thinking.

my expectation program what i stop

i think of something
and i think of what i would not like to have
because i think what i like to have -- then it is an attitude to 'wait for' the one what i would not like - then when it happens - it is already 'suspected' to have this, so no surprise, no disappointment -- but when the one happens what i like to have - (experience) - then i am glad

this is a program
this is not self direction
i forgive myself to define what i would like and polarize with the one what i would not like - and then by expecting the one what i would not like - i am a slave of my definitions - expectation - i spectate the situation - from an external point - not as myself -- expectation

I forgive myself that I think of something - instead of acting as awareness breath presence without separation - - the separation what is perceived only when I am in active participation within and as the mind consciousness system.