self forgiveness on suppression and hesitation

I forgive  myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not express myself unconditionally by judging the situation and the thing to be expressed by judging it as not relevant/not great enough/not final instead of realizing the math of 1+1=2 and express myself withhout self judgement .

I forgive myself that I have not realized that by judging and suppressing myself actually I am not here as myself but as of definition with the starting point of fear.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to express myself without judgement.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to desire toexpresz myself instead of realizing that the desire is here as myself as of separation from what I judge and suppress and compound instead of naturally I

express as  undefined as simple self trust here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hesitate by fear of judgement, even when it is fear of judgement of others, it is in fact self judgement. I stop. I breathe.