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I've finished how I see myself compromised with the idea of freedom and the actual freedom - and if I am not fully present - it happens automatically, meaning for instance thinking that one who has no home is free to go anywhere however it is not likely if one as no money, so then a thought comes that: freedom: travel anywhere: only if money: I do not have that much money: I should have reason why I do not have - and more reactions can come and all is some sort of inner friction.
As Joao Jesus expressed it in music: "Only I can change myself" - check out his downloadable most excellent music at EQAFE:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I do not actually change, but I constantly prove myself having the ability to change, with I actually change but not as directly as I could.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself within being able to change, whatever I behave like based on decision, motivation and direction.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use energy to change, to stimulate myself with energy to change, and not realizing that without the energy, I stop changing, I stop myself, I am dependent on energy, it is not directly who I am but according to stimulation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to prove myself being able to change instead of directly change myself without any inner reaction, any doubt, worry, fear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define perfection according to a feeling I've defined myself to feel when I expose my senses to art.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define values according to feelings I have being stimulated by vision, hearing, touch, taste, smell.
I forgive myself that I have not realized that all I've ever existed that I've defined who I am and limited myself to only defining myself to be who I am according to actually what I did.
I forgive myself that I have not realized that for self-judgment I've defined myself who I am to be able to have a feeling reaction about myself as positive or negative or neutral and participating within society I defined what is good and bad based on these feelings.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I compromise my direct sensing by automatic, apparently 'free' associations towards experiences however in fact these are automatic.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that speeding up within with energy is not means that myself actually speeding up but the self-accepted self-definitions as information flows to not needing to face what is here undefined, without prejudice.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define having definitions, judgments, thoughts, backchats about things, persons, events, objects in my reality as good, great, cool because believing that it helps me to decide what I want based on conclusions I made in the past for instance thinking is cool because making me smart and never investigating what it is exactly.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define thinking as cool because believing that makes me smart and not realizing that the existing fear I accept that without thoughts I am not smart enough.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry to not having energy, to not feel energetic, to not be able to direct myself regardless of energies which I feel in my mind such as thoughts, feelings, emotions.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that slowing down within when thoughts start to move, to breathe and present myself literally here within physical and direct myself to disregard the thoughts and understand the dynamics of thought, the origin of the thought, the solution physically to prevent the thought emerging and allowing myself to be possessed with.
An example of such thought:
I have no time, I do not have enough money for buying time to do what I really want to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I do not have enough time for what I want to do and not realizing that time is attention I give to what I prioritize.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use justification that I do not have enough time and money to move effectively and using this as excuse to not walk through my self-defined, self-accepted, self-created limitations in order to not change, to not take responsibility.
I forgive myself that I have not realized that within not taking responsibility for what I accept and allow in fact I allow myself to be inferior towards creation here therefore I use feeling inferior reaction to accept self-limitation until I do not realize I must face and stop reacting and direct myself to let it go.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to use effective timing and scheduling in order to not create friction and stress within about not having enough time and using polarities to define myself about how much I am limited by lack of time meanwhile in fact I simply do not use scheduling time within being overwhelmed, possessed, occupied with thoughts, feelings reaction what I've allowed myself to define as more important, interesting than the things I've defined as priority.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to be aware of that there is an ideal imagination of myself who I want to be and there is an actual physical manifestation of myself and the two is not the same so by having the starting point and definition point of the ideal/imagined/desired self and the actual self and that already creates friction, energy which compounds, influences, directs me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myselt to think and believe that I do have to have an ideal self imagination to participate with without actually considering who I really am in and as the physical currently.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I've defined who I am according to personality based on the specific belief that I do need to move faster in my mind than physically and defining my reality based on the mind and disregard physical and not seeing that this creates friction, energy within me which cause feelings, energetic experiences, moods wherein I am completely obsessed with inner experiences while excluding physical reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a belief that I do require to speed up within, collect as much energy as I can with I can change myself, therefore to accept inner conflict and friction and turmoil seems natural because it will generate energies within what I've defined as being alive, moving faster, feeling energetic while in fact all what happens is that I overcharge my mind of thoughts, feelings, emotions which I've defined myself to be and not realizing that the source, the origin, the reality of me is here in and as the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not face and investigate, deal and practically stop each and every single entry of my self-accepted inner speeding up within what I do not realize how each inner reaction is programmed to stimulate the next within what I am constantly occupied and in fact lost within consciousness as perceived knowledge and information.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that expressing mysef within physical breathing I am actively moving myself here as beingness and stopping myself as thoughts, energetic experiences.
I forgive myself that I have not realized and understood that stopping thoughts within does not make me less smart, but more present, constant, stable, therefore to have any excuse for why I allow thoughts freely rant in my head is not valid, only consciousness knowledge I use to tell me who I am while in and as the physical I exist as the flesh.
I forgive myself that I have never considered the physical beingness as the most direct, full and living expression of myself and believing that who I am is of consciousness, of thoughts and not realizing that I can exist without thought but I can not exist effectively within being occupied with thoughts.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to be self-honest with myself to the degree to realize that when I think - actually I worry, I fear and the thought pattern is the reflection of the inner fear of loss which I do not allow myself to see, understand, realize why and how I exactly manifest the speciftic thought pattern within as a result of energetic experience of perception of separation based on fear of loss.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to slow down within to the degree while breathing within and as physical breathing to see how thoughts are being triggered from what experiences and realize that in fact it is my decision to accept and allow this energetic experience within the belief that it is myself, that it is required for my living, that it is who I am and not seeing that each thought is the limitation reflection of the past.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to investigate Earth existence, people, ways and methods to realize that thinking is a con, wherein thought is the result of the starting point of existing within fear and inferiority in regards to existence, consciousness, ourselves.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight energies within the belief that I can dominate my energies to quiet them down and not realizing that within fighting I am split and whatever I do - I am not in equillibrium but of friction and the solution is to stop, stop participate, to let go, to breathe within quiet mind and disregard energy, judgment, fear.
When and as I see that I am moving faster within that I could see each movement within of why and how I react - I slow down, I breathe, I feel the physical, I sense my reality and I realize that it is not about how much or how fast I move within my quantum mind but in and as the physical here what is being shared with all other beings.
When and as I feel I do not have energy, I stop, I breathe, I realize I allow thoughts and feelings to tell me how and who I am instead of using common sense and realize my physical location and take responsibility for what I accept and allow, specifically to use energy of the mind of reactions instead of directly exist as physical.
-Resisting the physical as self:
(I suggest if you did not yet walked through this: God of Man: The Physical )
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, think that if I stop participate in the mind and I stick to physical here, then I am only an organic robot, a zombie, a machine within the belief that without thoughts, feelins I am not man and not realizing that who I am as man is not because of thoughts, feelings, emotions but who I am physically here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe, perceive that the physical is less, lesser, less important, relevant or valid, real than the consciousness mind energetic experiences and never slow down within to the degree and be self-honest about it to realize: the source is the physical, the consciousness is dependent of the physical.
I forgive myself that I have not realized that existing within the starting point of consciousness, such as energies, emotiones, feelings, love is not valid as accepts and allows abuse in and as the physical in beings, humans, children, women based on knowledge and information being superimposed to the flesh what must be stopped by a process of self-realization of investigating and releasing all points which are not relevant within practical, effective, life-supporting existence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel more powerful, smart, wise, ethernal or anything what feels good within and as consciousness by thoughts, feelings, emotions and not realizing that it is not real and when the body dies, consciousness stops as there is no source, energy-source to supply anymore, therefore to disregard physical means disregard real life, to accept abuse on physical level in this existence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not learn how to exist within and as the physical and how it is in fact much direct and real living when not using mind consciousness to tell me who I am, to not having thoughts to echo back who I supposed to be.
I forgive myself that I have never realized that the Self-realization means to be able to stand within and as the flesh within this existence but not of this existence, to exist within consciousness systems, but not of consciousness systems, to embrace the mind and understanding it, but not participate in it, meaning stopping the addiction of thinkinig, feeling, desiring, worrying.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to slow down within by using thought-reaction energy and wanting to bombard, shock, overcharge my mind in order to stop instead of realizing that slowing down is physical process and to each and every inner reaction what comes up automatically can be understood and stopped one by one.
When and as I do not feel the breath physically - I realize I lost presence, I stop, I physically re-align myself as being here, breathing, slowing down within, letting go of patterns within and realizing: I am actually here, as touch, as feel, as smell, as presence.
When and as somebody states that consciousness, mind, energy, feelings are important, greater, superior, more real, more cool than the physical - I stop reacting within - I stop resisting to argue - I realize it is not about what I talk or feel, but what I act in and as the physical, so I realize it is about living an example of starting point as the physical as life.
When and as I see that someone is stating that physical is just lesser I do not go into reaction, I realize it is the being's individual process what I face and who I am is what I express, so I am presence, direction, physical expression here.
When and as I worry that someone would disagree with me that being the physical as more relevant instead of consciousness - I realize it is obvious, I do not have to prove it - rather than I can see what points I allow being triggered within and I take responsibility to stop it and if I see appliable - I speak up naturally, I express how I see the point to assist and support myself and others as well.
When and as I see that I can not explain what I see, understand, realize - I slow down within and I realize I can only simplify and slow down within and express who I am within self-honesty and not allowing any point within to oppose, argue, prove or persuade anything and when I see the impulse to do so - I realize I am not present but of thoughts, feelings, worry, separation, polarity - so I stop, I slow down within, I let go all what I experience and I simply focus to what is here, what is common sense.
I commit myself to find practical ways to slow down within and realize that it is my starting point as life and when I do compromise my inner quietness I commit myself to apply the tools provided by desteni to support myself to re-align myself with flesh of life which is who I am and take responsibility for.
to be continued
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