Sunday, May 25, 2008

Lies as fear ------ I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to lie to myself.
As I lie to myself as myself - I am dishonest in the very core of my being. What is unacceptable.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to lie to myself.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to lie to myself just because of fear.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myselt to fear embrace everything.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not allowing myself to being the living word.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to speak words what I am not one and equal with.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to judge others. Not realising that I judge me. Because of fear. I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to fear from that what is manifested within me as definitions. I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to lie myself because of the accepted and allowed definitions as judgements as fear.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge sexual behaviour of others.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge my sexual judgements.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to know my accepted and allowed behaviour what is not me, and to lie to myself that I can accept it to myself a bit.
I forgive myself that I havent allowed myself to realise that what I accept and allow that is one and equal with me within me as me. If I accept and allow myself to lie to myself that means I accept the lies within me, and I accept the manifested lies in this existence.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not realise that I am in consciousness but I am not of consciousness.
And I do not loss anymore within consciousness. As I already know the consequences of loosing in consciousness.
I am embracing the fact that is not even possible to lost in consciousness, that would mean the law of stupidity of manifesting a timeloop of transcendence point what I accepted and allowed to see, realise, but not correct in my momentary application - just because of I lie to myself.
Unacceptable.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to lie myself.
To lie to myself as myself within myself means to loose in consciousness of consciousness as consciousness.
I already know that tube-like manifestation. I already experienced that maze-like picture-based illusion, and I already realised that is not who I really am.
I embrace existence as me within me in it's entierty and I am facing my accepted and allowed lies.
I am facing with all my accepted and allowed and re-re-re occured lies. As I lied to myself, the lies became separation, as I lied to myself that I can separate myself from all, from the entire existence, from all creation.
As I knew that I am all, but I lied to myself because of dishonesty.
And now it is manifested, and it is not a tinywiny. It is huge as all as one as equal what we became in and as existence.
It is massive. And if I do not stand up, and if I do not forgive myself that I accepted ------and I allowed myself to lie -- then who else could do this? As I am here, as infinife expression.
And I am not lie.
As I am inifine, I have to correct my expression. I am correcting myself as I do not allow to lie to myself.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear that I can not change.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear to face with my lies.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not being patient with me within me as me, as the word as one as equal: patience.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from words.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word: patience.
I am patience.
I am here. I am one. I am equal. I am all. I am moment. I am expression. I am unification.
I am all as one as equal as I am here as moment as expression as the unification of me.


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear from that I am not infinite.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear from infinite.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to separate mysel from the word: infinite.
I am infinite. I am here. I forgive myself that I havent allowed myself to be always here.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not being always here.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to wanting to escape from here, not realising that there is nowhere I can hide.
There is nowhere I can run as I am all existence in it's entirety. I can not escape from myself as I am always here.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not allowing myself to face with myself to be comfortable within me with me here. Always here. Always within me.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to lie to myself that I can be not here.
Impossible. I am always here. If i lie to myself that I can not be here, then I lie to myself that I am not here. And it is not me. It is dishonesty - it is separation.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear from me.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear from me as all creation as one as equal here.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear from me and tried to hide from me.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to wanted to close me in a secluded room to not wanting to see me.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not being able to forgive myself.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can not forgive myself.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to lie to myself that I can not forgive myself.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not realise that be lie ve means that I lie to me, means I am lie within me as me.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be lie ve.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to lie to me that I can not change.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am inferior as slave within creation, to not take responsibility for me for all as one as equal, here, always, unconditionally.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear from being exposed that I wanted to be superior as god in creation, to lie myself as superior as powerful that I do not need to face with my lies, with my fear, with my dishonesty.
I forgive myself that I havent allowed myself to relalise that I am responsible for everything what I accepted and allowed.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear being exposed about I lied to myself as dishonesty, and I wanted to hide from myself as I wanted to hide from others as myself, and it is manifested as 3D, as mind, as consciousness.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my lies to even more lie to myself that I am inferior with my lies - then I can not change.
I forgive myself that I havent allowed myself to forgive myself - for me give self-honesty to myself as myself, no separation.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to fear facing with the consequences of my lies.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myelf to being embarrassed within the manifested consequences of my self-dishonesty, of my self-lies, of my self fear.
I embrace embarrasment. I embrace anxiousness. I embrace solitude. I embrace pain. I embrace everything.
I am one and equal with creation in it's entirety. I am one and equal with and as all life.

1 comment:

words of me said...

talamon, you words really shiver with self trust, to me that is.