[JTL Day 195] VLOGs for Self-Support

Made some VLOGS some time ago for about an hour. It is a cool self-support and also as an opportunity to share it.



Looking back when I've started Vlogging, I remember, in February of 2008 I shared my first VLOG in regards to Self-honest Process. Since then I see myself being much more comfortable to talk into the camera - or talking publicly - to express myself when I decide so.
Previously there was this 10 minutes limit for how long a youtube video could be - and it is funny to see that I am still considering that limit which I allow - because I do not want to make a hour vlog, but rather make it sticking to a topic and thus directing myself to compress and specify my words.
I find BLOGging and VLOGging as highly self-supportive when it is in the starting point of Self-honesty. To slow down into physical timeline, to be in this real space and face myself, to know myself, to understand and be able to change myself it is crucial a diligent, principled, disciplined effort to make which accumulates into Self-direction, Self-stability and Self-trust.
What I suggest is to re-watch oneself talking about a point and see inner reactions, how and when and what I judge seeing and hearing talking myself. And then that can be reflected back to self, can be understood, stopped, and simply stand as my expression, as equal as one.
There are so many aspects existing within one's mind and it's vastness can feel like it is life, but if we start investigating our patterns, reactions, feelings, thoughts - we can realize these are consequences, accumulated into the manifestation of conglomerations of who we really are today. This self, as how and as we live in this physical world can not be denied as it is ourselves directly, which does not mean it's unchangeable, it just means that it is what we ended up becoming until this day.
So changing is an interesting word - if I do not change - am I perfect, will I not change anymore? By myself or by circumstances?
If I can have power, will and direction to change myself to become better, will I do it? Can I really do it? Within wanting to change I acknowledge that I am not satisfied with myself, within not wanting to change I say everything is alright in me, in my reality, which again: can be and should be questioned within absolute self-honesty.

So after all - who can change oneself and who will change oneself? If I can not change, am I real or am I already fully myself? Why to change and what to change and how to change then also can be a question.
This is the whole point within the Journey to Life process - I walk through understanding and layers of Self and explore what I am, what I can be, which parents, spiritual ways, mainstream school, or partnership might not showed me before, not because they did not want to, but because they did not know either who I am and what I am capable of! And when seeing myself became who I am because of dishonesty, fear, I stop that, I see what is beyond that and how to live without that dishonesty/fear.

Thus I suggest taking this free online self-realization course for becoming not just the Quest I on, but the Answer too!

• http://lite.desteniiprocess.com

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1 Stop personality - Stop surviving mode and Start Living

I am living as a surviver - I am surviving like the ones who are surfing - this implies the case when I was swimming with Esteni in the sea - and it was fascinating because I went in and I was enjoying the huge waves and then I went more in and then the waves were more strong and I could not stand them and they washed me away and then I was resisting and I was fighting against the water - basically against the ocean - and in fact I even enjoyed it - the fight, the fact that I was being pushed down and washed away and then Esteni came after me about the waves started to pull me out so I should come back - and then I realized that yes, I was a bit already tired and I was fighting and in that fight - in the beginning I was enjoying to fight it but then I simply slipped - I was not really myself anymore but this fight - as physically I was fighting for my life.
Yes, Esteni, I realized the point intensely as this happened already - almost exactly - I was in south India, near Goa at a beach called Paradise - lol it is called like - where I was with a greek girl who just literally arrived to india and we went into the water and then big waves came she immediately went deeper to avoid being crushed and I didn't - I was very close to the rocks - and what happened that I was washed away and I felt myself literally like I was sitting in a washing machine. Then the wave was over and I was seeing that my head is not so far from rocks - and that contact could simply smash my head with all of my brain like a pumpkin over the rocks. In that moment she shouted for me that 'It's coming again' - and I started to move but it was too late - the washing machine experience came again - but in this time I was sure that it comes with my physical end. I had some thoughts like 'people in this cases tend to see their lives roll over before their eyes like a superfast videoclip? - and next thought was my mother' and the next one was like 'WTF?'- and then the wave came - it was a timeless experience - and when it was over I opened my eyes and I was squating front of a really unfriendly rock from my forehead about 5 centimeters.
Then I moved!
I moved like it does not matter what is going on but in this moment I move myself - in that first movement I bruised my hip hard but I continued to go out no matter what - and I managed to avoid the next wave.

Then something happened. Something definitely happened within myself because I was standing there - at paradise beach with a remarkable new scar on my body proving that I am still here.
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Ok I did some vlogs about it after writing this...

another writing as scripting structure for vlog

Within my process much happened recently and I share some points within the following videos.
In the last years I've become more quiet inside - many points what occupied me within my head I was able to release entirely, some points are still I am facing -- Also I was visiting desteni farm recently and many points I've became aware of - and how it assisted me and how I am able to turn this knowledge and information platform into practical living, what is best for all.

Immediate stop - Since I've started process at 2007 - during these 3 years - I've developed the ability of stopping - this self expression did not come in a moment - I had to push the point of self honesty continously and constantly - I had to become self forgiveness - to be able to stop the thinking, feeling, emotional movements, what made me busy within and without as myself as the starting point of me as mind consciousness system - as this self-deluded occupation happened again and again and again and then I always went into a some kind of energetic possession what directed me - and then when it was discharged in a way - I was alone with myself without directive power - with the facing of the fact that I am not really myself as wholeness -- it happened again and again and again until one moment when I've decided to stand and remain standing no matter what - the DECISION what must be made what I had to become to physically live - to constantly move myself as this point as self honesty and not falling back but standing and breathing and forgiving and releasing the idea of myself - within the understanding that if I let myself being pulled down - I will fall again and I have to pull myself together again to face with this same point - as it happened endless times - and I do not accept myself as this fall and cycle - I must change, I stand and I breathe and I move and I push and I walk and then at one point I realized that the point I am directing, that the point that I am able to stop - immediately - that I am the point as myself within myself and I am expressing myself through and as this point as the starting point of who I am as presence as inner silence. This realization must stand constantly and continously within the aspect of life in each and every single moment.
Until that the self is facing past as the manifested consequences - until that the self is pulling everything here to be able to stand as the unification of self - until each being is not standing within existence as "I stand as the physical expression of I AM HERE" - until that, the proces is not done, until the process of self realization of facing self, releasing the systematic manifestations and finding practical solution what is best for all is ongoing and being busy forming here in the physical who we really are within oneness and equality as life.

script up for upcoming vlogs

I am preparing to make some video logs - almost everything is ready, so I will push this point. Also I will start to explore myself within sharing myself in my native language(hungarian). In various ways, I will be more fluid within the expression - but many words I never used in my language - I will have to establish a specific vocabulary to be able to explore - so within the process of explaining words and information - I will be able to see the words as myself - and to purify words to stand as the words and not the definition matrixes within the mind.
Things I will be sharing like
what is mind consciousness system, what is mind, what is consciousness, what is system.
What is man, what is human, what is life, what is not life.
What is the physical, what is here, what is equality, what is oneness.
What is separation, what is the core of the separation.
What is the process, what is self, what is self expression, what is self realization.
What is common sense, what is real, what is not real.
What is self honesty, what is self forgiveness, what is here.
What is location, what is movement, what is expression, what is stability.

Things like that I want to express within some basic videos in hungarian - for the first time - to see how I express, how it flows, how I remain within the expression as the moment.
To see what knowledge and information I speak as physical living experience of myself and what is of only a theory and a information placement of what I should live.
To see what I still holding on and what I already transcended, how I realize what is self-deception and how I explore and express the self-deception and how I realize it's core, how I stop it, how I forgive it and how I prepare myself to finally stop and change within physical, real expression.


Also in english vlogs - I will start to explain how I experienced my deceptions during my lifetime before process started - and then how I experienced myself within the deepest, darkest mind-pit where I put myself when I realized who I am and who I am not and how I managed myself to pick up myself and how I stood up from the excuses and justifications to stop the self deception and actually start birth life from the physical. What things I've faced, what was the difficulty, what was easy for me, how I scripted myself up to move myself, how I realized what I realized and how I stopped my habits of deluding myself with substances such as drugs.
Why I took the drugs, what delusions I experienced during the effects of drugs, how I experienced the physical reality or how I did not experienced the physical reality and what I thoughts, what I hoped, what I desired and why - in order to be able to remain within the self-delusions - such as I am special, I am chosen or I am protected by the system -- what events I had to face to realize that I am in the choice of life and death and that was seriously real experience.
So in the first vlogs, what I've shared in the ' talamoon ' youtube channel - I was sharing my experiences for others to be able to relate but at this moment I can be more directive, more specific and more precise within my expression and my process.
So I will expand by writing and vlogging hand by hand and it will be one and equal as myself as words as expression as myself, here.

Also I will push the point of physical equality, and physical experiences, how and what I experience - sometimes I am able to express myself accordingly - how I experience the mind, the physical, the energies, the self movement, the breath.