On now now now now now

I am a digital outprint - a printout of that being who am I really. I am that being who is hiding behind of this Talamon, who is still has the habit of being an excuse, being a dataset, being an information system, a structural resonance - instead of just be breath as life as onness and equality.
I realized what I am, I realized what could be the starting point to born life from this phisical manifested creation. It's a process. As I am releasing day by day, moment by moment that much anger, that supression
- I am becoming more sure that I have to stop.
- I am becoming more sure that I fucked myself extensively.
- I am becoming more sure that I wont supress myself again.
- I am becoming that I have to let go all 'I have to'-s.

I am exploring myself. I am exploring my excuses. 'Excuse me' - no. I am not excusing me anymore. I am facing myself just like putting all into me as me and experience it.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to define myself as light.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to escape from that what I labelled as dark instead of realizing that is also my nature what needs to unify as onness and equality.
I forgive myself that I exert my anger.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to be angry to my situation about being powerless, instead of realizing that I am currently manifesting it from influenced past. I stop that. I am not that. I am life. I am deleting that.
I realized my nervousness is just an excuse. I am not nervousness. I delete that.
I realized all what I do is changing reality. I change my reality to decreate. To pull back all my tentacles. HEEEEE WORLD I PULL BACK ALL MY REFRACTIONS, all my tentacles.
From space from time. I am unifying myself.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to be jealous.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to exert my anger to my situation.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself that I choosed deception. I choose life as breath.
I am giving myself up. I am not my mind. I am not deception. I am sure. I am here. I am here.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to wanted to fly.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not direct and move me as I am capable of.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use personalities to not be the same tala today yesterday tomorrow as me as life as onness and equality as breath.

I forgive myself that I accepted to be unpatient. I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed to desire woman to find that for being starting point or that relationship instead of realizing that I am onness and equality as all as life as breath.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to build up my debt of someone by thoughts, pictures, feelings, fear. I delete them.
I forgive myself that I am allowing myself to stop self instead of moving self as awareness as breath as life as facing in every moment as me as onness and equality.

Every single thought is manifesting, those not what I forgive,stop,unify and transcend.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be angry to my family.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be angry to dogs.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be angry to women.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be angry to men.
Maybe anger is just unpatient stuff...Like I cannot wait NOOW I want.
Breath is not unpatient.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want a system polarity manifestation in my mind. I no need polarity. I am life.